GÖKÜ'DEN NOTLAR

A retrospective writing to illustrate as a metaphor that The Polar Express has arrived where it started this journey. 🌟  It's been 4 months since I returned to Turkey. ''How is my country's current situation?'' This is an absolutely different topic, but I will mention it briefly in the following sections. Based on the calendar, I grew one more year, but this is not the only measurement of how much we do grow. So, I am much more mature now than just one year older version of me (expected to happen), after last year. This is life and it generally takes the form by experiences (number of them, their intensity, and so on). Sometimes external situations you face force you to grow up immediately and fast; as a result, growing two times more than usual is normal. :) I had to grow, I had to expand and redefine my boundaries, and I had to be more flexible to not be fragile when there were plenty of factors outside insisting to stretch me; I then did so -still not enoug...

15/09/22 Bilkent University-Ankara/Turkey Golden hours in my room - with t he company of this very chill song - a pure slowdown 17/04/2021 Skive/Denmark Note. Short hikes made up one of the biggest parts of my daily life last year and this place was my routine destination for a break and appreciation of both the beauty of nature and silence. This day I saw this bird watching chair for the first time after it was built. That priceless pleasure I got at that time was poetic, with the company of this song . 08/04/22 Istanbul/Turkey 18/01/22 Izmir/Turkey Skive/Denmark Skive Bibliotek-Skive/Denmark Note. The first coffee from the new coffee machine in the library, which was a little piece of happiness for me during long working hours 💗 28/06/21 Middelfart/Denmark Note.  Sailed off into the glorious sunset 18/07/21 Aarhus/Denmark Note. Lovely breakfast with Ana - after the dance night, before the church concert,  a very  fresh morning 03/07/21 Stockholm/Sweden Note.  The...

“Yerimden kalktım. Aynaya doğru ilerledim. İki hanımın sessizce beni dikizlemelerine aldırış etmeden baktım. Ben de perişan bir haldeydim. Potinlerim çamur içindeydi. Şapkamın kurdelasında beyaz beyaz lekeler vardı. Yüzüm sapsarıydı. Gözlerim kıpkırmızı. Kenarlarından fırlayan saçlarımı toplamak için şapkamı çıkarınca şöyle parmaklarımla bir tarasam elimde kalacaklarını sandım. Şapkamı giyip kenarlarından fırlayan saçları içeriye tıktım. Dışarı çıktım. Merdivenleri indim. Vapur Kadıköy'den kalkmış geliyordu. Haydarpaşa İstasyonu'na baktım. Kocaman kapılarından ötede kırmızı yeşil fenerli, demir yollu, trenli, yolculu, meraklı, düşünceli, perişan, yerini bulmaya çalışan bir alem vardı. Her gün yüzlerce tren binlerce hikaye getiriyor, binlerce hikaye alıp gidiyordu. İstasyonun kapıları insan alıp insan veriyordu.”

For the beginning... ''If the daylight breaks and you're still miles away You should move into cover''   3/4/21 Copenhagen/Denmark   Spring has arrived. Denmark is greener. It is full of sunshine and bird songs right now. We have been longing to see these spring forerunners for a long time... I would like to start with this song above. In a way, it reflects my inner world, so, literally poignant and utterly unique to me. It's been eight months since I arrived here, without a visit to my home country. It sounds quite a long time. After my experience in Germany, which lasted five months, I have now expanded my maximum period of living abroad. As I see, it comes by time. I hadn’t imagined that I would be in this situation. It was beyond my expectations , but here we are: I am walking in the reality of my dreams. What life brings us is impressive.  This journey has started to change me gradually. I am reforming. It is as if something is brewing inside me. It i...

Here is a song for the beginning... 13.10.20 Spoettrup/Denmark I've always believed in love and its chance to continue till the end of life. At first, it will probably sound childish, but on the contrary, I believe it is a very mature thing. It requires many personality traits, such as the capability to love and stand by someone, the ability to show tolerance and respect and to be patient. Surely, we also need to be a little bit lucky somehow... Because maybe love is everywhere -you know this cliché- but love is a subtle thing at the same time, so the existence of love is not enough to live it. :)) Sorry... No doubt, love has so many forms in the world. To be honest, when I started to write this essay , my main purpose was to talk about romantic love only from a very romantic perspective, but right now, I am totally aware of the romantic love shared by two (or more?) people is just one of the innumerable forms of love. You can love your pet or your plants. You can feed them with l...

A very soft song  from Aphex Twin   for the beginning. 26/09/20 Vedersoe/Denmark 04.10.20 As you can see, Denmark is mostly cloudy. This weather was not usual for me until I started to live here. Coming from a Mediterranean country (moreover from the West!), I sometimes miss the sunshine. I think I will get used to it in time.  These days, I fully feel the autumn; fallen leaves, mizzling rain, circulating warm wind around, and Halloween time coming soon... Nature is yawning and completing the last preparations to sleep. Denmark is a super silent country, let's say ''peaceful'' -if you can feel it this way-. I guess it will be more silent in wintertime. People will spend their time at home with their families. Sounds pretty. :) Maybe one day, I will be able to do so in Denmark too. Who knows?.. It is a totally cosy portrait for me. Come to mention cosy, I would like to talk about ''hygge''. It is the most popular habit in Denmark culture. Danes love i...

3/9/20 Vorupoer/Denmark A song   from  Nick Cave & The Bad Seeds People always say that “People hurt”, “People are bad, rude and unreliable (and more)”. But as far as I see, people saying this can do it without any hesitation when it's their turn. Is this revenge??!  We will probably be all dead in 60 years and while we are getting older, from time to time we will feel like a stranger in this world because time will grab our beloved ones from us. A nd this feeling will give us a bitter grief. When we look from this perspective, there is no  meaning to wasting life. Of course, wasting life has different meanings for each person. Then, what is my meaning? It is a big question and probably I cannot answer it properly.  Anyway, I can still try... T his result has been created by too many reasons coming together, no doubt about it, but I don't want to get lost in details.  When you have a partner, a wife, or a husband who loves you dearly, to cheat this pers...