Dreams Come True-3
Here is a beautiful song by Yan Frenkel with his velvety voice to accompany your reading; this man deserves to be known.
YES! That's an absolute true myth that dreams come true. It just takes time and requires much effort, patience and diligence. You have to have and conserve the steadfast focus within, no matter what is happening outside, until the time has come for that dream to come true.
After the two-year Bilkent experience, I was exhausted in many senses; fortunately, I learned how to manage life in a kind of battle. I was trying my hardest to keep on moving onward. Some days, I just tried remembering the cute little scene from Finding Nemo, saying, "Just keep swimming". Well, nicely, I did... It helped because every stroke helping you leave things behind is sort of a filter for your mind to be clearer so that you can focus on now and construct the future. I have always constituted the future SO bright in my mind since I was a child. I don't know how many years I strived to keep this hope alive. I convinced myself to cultivate it anyway in idk how many harsh days. My prime dream has always been to live a good life (a very subjective phenomenon, tho I am humble here :)) so that I can feel secure, pleased, loved, creative and free. Every little step I have taken thus far was to pursue this ultimate dream. Over the years, I found myself chasing this dream through academia.
I was searching for a PhD position to continue my academic journey last year. Many attempts I dared failed. It was an absolute sorrow initially cos I was pretty sure I sacrificed enough for this dream to come true, but nothing was happening. I then slowly adapted to the situation, helping me to take a broadened perspective through the experience I have gone through the year. I eventually learned to accept the situation and wait within the time I had to wait. I know now that that is a lifesaver skill, an excellent flexibility a person must have. The entire journey has given me a deep appreciation for what I have now and growing gratitude nourished by daily practices until it breaks the old-habit negative cycles in my mind. The generator of life was radiating good cos I insisted on this fundamental change.
Days followed days, and I learned the art of "in the storm, I stay clear". The holy moment (jk) then appeared; I was accepted by the Technical University of Munich to be a part of a great lab, the iSearch team🌟🦒. I am so proud of this very result! Every little detail on the path made me arrive at this destination. So excited to be there and begin a new chapter in my life. What is nicer than a fresh start?
I do hope it will be an opportunity for a significant transition for me as a person, scholar and blogger (I plan to start recording some vlogs or podcasts, let's see :)). I embrace changes as much as I love things that remain constant in my life against the flow of time. I guess this should be in a balance to feel safe.
Thank you for being here & see you in new posts about my changing life in Munich! 🥨
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